Guess who’s baaaaaaaaacccck!!
To be honest, I was done with the phone thing. DONE!
I couldn’t deal with all the headaches after Niteflirt decided to nosedive into another platform, eyes wide shut. Everything seems like it’s a bit more stable now, so I’ll be around at some point later this morning.
I’m in the process of treating myself to a nice loooooonnnng night of making a mess of that walking, whimpering hole formerly known as rosie. If you’ve been following my blog since ’07, you know all about that situation. If not, dig around in the old posts then come back to this one.
Before yesterday, I hadn’t heard from it in nearly a year. I kind of liked the silence. It’s always soooo deliciously shocking exactly how whiny and needy a guy who’s old enough to be my dad can be.
It called this time. Usually it contact me via a text or an email. Calls from it mean a bold kind of desperation; it doesn’t care what I can hear in its voice.
Remember having a favorite toy as a kid? Ever break it on purpose? Not all favorite toys break easily but when they do…when you don’t have to hit it with anything or drop it from the top of the staircase…there’s always this …. feeling.
I don’t know if I should call it a feeling, it’s more of a release. Releases flash fry. They rush in and penetrate everything they come in contact with. Then it’s over and the release is absorbed when feelings creep in and engulf it. Just like any other consumptive relationship, the consumer always takes on some of the characteristics of the consumed. Feelings always take on the characteristics of the release. Which is why people think they have no control over their feelings. There’s too much of the memory of the release still there.
Most people are too lazy or just aren’t smart enough to realize that it’s only that little something the release leaves behind that makes more seem necessary. No matter how much you want it to be, nothing is never as good as the first time. That’s how weakness comes in, the dependency. That’s that’s how a lot of things work. That’s WHY a lot of things “work”.
I’ll be around later…
